Our trip to Cali and Disneyland

Major's Tee-ball photos

April already?

WOW! how this year is flying I guess we are having too much fun. Easter was a tot of fun this year. Major and Dallas are at such a fun age to do the whole Easter bunny thing. Dallas is getting so much better with communicating and it is a lot easier on B.J. and I. B.Js parents came down last Thursday so they could come to Majors 2nd tee-ball game. It was awesome to see Majors cheering section. We had Tanner and Shasta, Marla, Bert, Melayne and Dally-dog and I yelling and screaming for him. He was so excited. Thank you to all that came to cheer for Major. After the game we all went to Barros pizza and ate dinner. Always a fun party when the Wootans are in town. Then on Saturday Major had another game and then later that day We went over to Ethan and Jenn's to dye Easter eggs. It was awesome we got Mattas mexican food and just hung out and visited. On our way home we called the Wootan clan and they came over to color another dozen eggs. My boys went to bed at 12:15 on sun. morning and then woke up at 7 Easter morning. I was so worried they were going to be bratty from lack of rest but they were champs. I took them for a 30 min drive so they could nap over to Ethan and jenn's house to see my family for a little whilefor Easter. I love Easter it is such a wonderful holiday It was a little different not going to Church. I felt like I needed to get ready and get my boys ready and go to the church house. I am grateful for the atonement and for Jesus Christ sacrifice for me in my life. I know he loves me and is mindful of my trials. I was talking to a close friend the other day and we were talking about how hard relationships are. I have struggled with some relationships in my life. I have learned through counseling about core beliefs. We all have core beliefs some people have a core belief of waking up at the crack of dawn and working all day. (Thats one of my dads core beliefs) other people have a core belief about going to school and getting a degree. (Thats one of my husbands core beliefs.) We get core beliefs from our childhood, or even later in life if we feel that some decisions we made have been positive thing in our lives, we tend to make it a core belief. The problem sometimes with our core beliefs that we feel so passionately about are beliefs that we tend to think that other peoples core beliefs are wrong or stupid. I know I have been guilty of this. I am trying to look at the way other people do things and not think negative thoughts about how they go about their lives because what works for me just might not work for someone else. I know earlier on in marriage I struggled with some of the ways B.J. or even his family did things. It was very different than the way my family did things. My first husband went on a mission and his family was wonderful, spiritual, sweet and all that. Now that I am divorced and married to B.J., who is not a return missionary, now for 8 years, he is a way better match for me and so is his family. I am sad I went through that VERY difficult time in my life, but soooo..... grateful I have B.J. as my husband and the two little turds that I do. B.J. and I have had our struggles in marriage but we have worked through our differences and continuing to compromise. Compromise is a necessity in marriage. It is hard for stubborn people like me but sometimes things just aren't worth fighting over. I have some awesome pictures coming from our beach trip and Easter. Life is wonderful, my kids are healthy, and B.J is a stud. Love you all!

TIME?

It has been a little while since I have posted and so much has been going on I'm not so sure I can express everything that has been going on over here at the Wootan household. First off, we had a spat of sickness at our house that started with me getting a sinus infection and followed by Major getting "pink eye" then Major giving it to Dallas and then Dallas giving it to B.J. It was lovely. Anyone that has children knows how sucky it is to have sick kids, but throw a sick husband and a sinus infection for yourself and just go right ahead and shoot me. Then to top it off my assistant at work got strep throat and so I had to get my old assistant to come in and help me work. It worked out well, it was a lot of fun seeing my old friend. We had a trip to the beach planed and I'm sooo... happy we didn't get sick over there. I was still on my antibiotic but I felt a whole lot better. Cali is always a pleasant trip for me, I just LOVE the beach, there is something about it that is soothing to me. My inlaws got us into Disneyland for free and are always so wonderful to my kids I sure love and appreciate Bert and Marla for always accommodating us when we are out there. When we got there Melayne (B.J. youngest sister) and Marla had wrapped about 10 presents for my kids in valentines paper and had told B.J. and I that they went and found some age appropriate toys so the kids would have fun. It was so thoughtful of them. We had an awesome trip and cant wait to go back in July. Well back to the grindstone. Work is going well which is such a blessing and time just seems to be going by very quickly. Major started Tee ball and it is a ton of fun watching him play and interact with other kids. Dallas has had a hard time learning how to talk. We have a speach therapist that comes over and works with him on Monday mornings. He is improving and hopefully he will get caught up with all the other kids his age. Time is such a funny thing I am reading a really good book called "The Power of Now" the book talks about living in the past and in the future and when we don't just live in the moment all the time then we miss the present. It is very interesting. I live in the past a lot. I don't feel like I have lived in the future as much until Kamber my sweet niece died, but when someone close to you dies so unexpectedly I think it makes you a little paranoid who is going next and how. Those thoughts cant be healthy. It just gives you anxiety and keeps you from feeling peace. It says in the scriptures that fear it not from the Lord so I can take another guess, and that would be that fear comes from Satan. Satan has tools we don't realize. It isn't always big things like sex, drugs ,lying, and stealing, Satan knows that some people wont be tempted by those things so he uses his tactics wisely. If he can instill fear, depression and anxiety on us in keeps us from our divine potential he has won. Hopefully my mom doesn't get mad for me sharing this, but she has had a 15 year battle with anxiety. 15 years ago I was 15 so being younger I didn't really think much about it. as I got older I realized how much it affected her and our lives. She can not drive a car, or fly in a airplane, she gets very uncomfortable in busy restaurants and of unfamiliar places. She has the back row of church reserved for her so she can make an escape if needs be. My mom has told me in the past that she feel like a burden to Mindi because she has to take her everywhere. I help when I can if my mom needs me, but Mindi is already there so they usually get their errands done together. I wonder why we have certain struggles. My mom is a really good person, she is a ton of fun to be around and is always making a quilt for someone. I dont struggle with anxiety, but I do struggle with PMS (just ask B.J.) it is bad. I am learning that around that time of the month I am not me, and being very careful to get rest and learn to keep my mouth shut. Time is an interesting thing. I am trying to live in the moment more, and enjoy little things. None of us know how much "TIME" we have left.

Are we LUCKY? or VALIANT?

Lately I have been thinking a lot about how we are here. I know we hear in church there was a war in heaven, we wanted to come down, get bodies, have free agency yadda yadda yadda. I'm talking about how were we so lucky or valiant to be here. HERE in AMERICA, with FOOD, EPIDURALS, MODERN MEDICINE, THE GOSPEL, FREEDOM and sooo... much more? Do we know how lucky we are to have what we do? Do we know how lucky we are to go the store and buy medicine if we need it? I have been overwhelmed by the blessings we keep receiving. B.J. and I don't watch much T.V. ,but lately we seem to be keeping up with the news on Haiti. Thee other night John Travolta and his wife were on the news with his private jet in the background, and they were being interviewed by the news. He was saying how he has the means to go to Haiti and deliver items and take doctors to help the poor victims. He also said that he felt some sort of responsibility to do what he can to help those in need because of his wealth and situation. I was really impressed by that. I am so sad for what they are going through in Haiti. I was on the Internet looking for babies I could adopt and found out that there was 380,000 children in Haiti waiting to be adopted in 2007. Who knows how many kids are in need now? When I got my Patriarchal blessing it was told to me that I was from the tribe of Manasseh. Ive always liked hip hop music, some rap, and black people. I spent my younger years down in Lehi Arizona going to school with the Indians cause we lived by the Reservation. I always got along with the brown boys. My mom and dad let an Hawaiian girl live with us to go to school and play volleyball when I was about 14 years old and I just loved her. It was sad to see her go back to Hawaii. B.J. and I have been talking about adopting a baby. I am sure there are people out there that think it would be silly to adopt when you can have your own kids, but when you see the amount of kids that need a home, I don't see why not. I would love to adopt right now, but I think I would want all of my kids here and I would want them to be a little older. So back to my original question? How were we so LUCKY or VALIANT to be here? I know there is a lot of babies in need in this country, and a lot of people suffering so how did I come to the family I did with the amazing blessings I have? I have herd some people say that the reason we came here was because we were so valiant in the pre existence were we valiant or did the Lord know that there was no way we would make it back unless we had what we do? Let me know what you think.

Happy New Year!

I hope everyone had a wonderful New Year. Having small children makes it hard to go out, and even if you had someone to watch the kiddos you don't want to be out too late cause most kids are up at the butt crack of dawn. My in-laws came over at 12:15 so we could go next door to our neighbors house for their little shindig we were invited to. Going to bed at 3am and waking up at 9:30 doesn't do the body good. B.J. and I were invited to 4 parties and wanted to attend all of them but it just didn't work out. It was a lot of fun having my in-laws in town, they are wonderful to my kids. My kids are the youngest in my husbands family so they sure get a lot of love from them. On my side of the family there are a lot of kids so Major and Dallas love being over there and playing with them. Christmas was so fun with the kids they bring such a fun atmosphere into the holiday. I am kinda sad it is over but B.J. and I have so much to look forward to. We haven't heard about our house yet still waiting and waiting and waiting. I hope and pray things works out with this house. Whatever is supposed to happen will.

Our Christmas pictures!

LOVE THIS TIME OF YEAR!

This picture is on Pikes Peak in Colorado and it really doesn't do it justice. It was amazing. I think of Christmas when I see this picture. We are settled in for now and waiting to hear from the bank. I love the house we are in and pray daily that it works out. B.J. and I do not want to move 2 more times. Coming to terms with knowing whether we get the house or not is out of our control has been hard. Right now the majority of our stuff is in one bedroom in the house. Our clothes are in suitcases and it is rather annoying. I hope we get situated somewhere soon permenantly. B.J. and the boys are well, Dallas is making some progress on his speach but still needs therapy. Major is getting so big and I do miss having a baby around but I am no where ready to get prego again. It is hard on me. Over all, we are so blessed. I am thankful for B.J. and my babies. I have two healthy boys, a wonderful husband (most of the time) and a wonderful job. What more can you ask for?

The vacation is over and it is time to move.

Well it has been 5 weeks since I posted last and I am surprised I have the time to post now. First off the Denver trip was soo..... amazing. It will go down as one of the best trips ever. We saw so many beautiful things and the weather was awesome. Spencer was hurt so we didn't get to see him play and it was a bummer not to see him out on the field busting people up but at the same time it was way fun riding to the games with him and getting to visit with him and Annie. Thank you to Annie and Spencer for having us and really showing us around. They were so accommodating and fun. Annie is a great cook and did my laundry and made it truly feel like a vacation. Dallas liked the fact that he wasn't the baby and was a turd to Gunner most of the time it REALLY bothered me to see Dallas get feisty with his cousin. I kept hoping Gunner would clean his clock one time so Dallas would back off. I think Gunner is still too young to fight back, and is probably very relieved that Dally-Dog is out of his grill. We were able to see two games back to back cause we were there for 10 days The Broncos played the Cowboys the first week and beat them and then we saw Tom Brady with the Patriots the next week and we beat them as well. The best part of the games were going down into the tunnel with Spencer after the game and seeing the players up close and then walking to our car was way cool they have these barricades that keep fans from rushing the players but hundreds of people waiting in the FREEZING cold weather to get an autograph of the players they wanted. People were yelling at Spence to come and sign there stuff and he stayed out there for 45 min and signed anything anybody wanted. It is so cool that Spence is a role model for so many people.
On a more serious CRAZY note we are out of our house in 3 days. It is kinda scary. B.J. and I have been here for 6 years and although it isn't our dream home we have really loved the area , ward, and the relationships we have developed out here. We have found a house and we are renting, and hoping to buy it eventually we have put an offer in at the bank and are waiting to hear back. Who knows how long it will be. The house is right around the corner from our old house and I will be VERY happy if it works out. It will be a lot of fun to have Christmas at our house this year and actually have room for everyone without being cramped.
Here are some pictures of our trip.

Denver trip