TIME?

It has been a little while since I have posted and so much has been going on I'm not so sure I can express everything that has been going on over here at the Wootan household. First off, we had a spat of sickness at our house that started with me getting a sinus infection and followed by Major getting "pink eye" then Major giving it to Dallas and then Dallas giving it to B.J. It was lovely. Anyone that has children knows how sucky it is to have sick kids, but throw a sick husband and a sinus infection for yourself and just go right ahead and shoot me. Then to top it off my assistant at work got strep throat and so I had to get my old assistant to come in and help me work. It worked out well, it was a lot of fun seeing my old friend. We had a trip to the beach planed and I'm sooo... happy we didn't get sick over there. I was still on my antibiotic but I felt a whole lot better. Cali is always a pleasant trip for me, I just LOVE the beach, there is something about it that is soothing to me. My inlaws got us into Disneyland for free and are always so wonderful to my kids I sure love and appreciate Bert and Marla for always accommodating us when we are out there. When we got there Melayne (B.J. youngest sister) and Marla had wrapped about 10 presents for my kids in valentines paper and had told B.J. and I that they went and found some age appropriate toys so the kids would have fun. It was so thoughtful of them. We had an awesome trip and cant wait to go back in July. Well back to the grindstone. Work is going well which is such a blessing and time just seems to be going by very quickly. Major started Tee ball and it is a ton of fun watching him play and interact with other kids. Dallas has had a hard time learning how to talk. We have a speach therapist that comes over and works with him on Monday mornings. He is improving and hopefully he will get caught up with all the other kids his age. Time is such a funny thing I am reading a really good book called "The Power of Now" the book talks about living in the past and in the future and when we don't just live in the moment all the time then we miss the present. It is very interesting. I live in the past a lot. I don't feel like I have lived in the future as much until Kamber my sweet niece died, but when someone close to you dies so unexpectedly I think it makes you a little paranoid who is going next and how. Those thoughts cant be healthy. It just gives you anxiety and keeps you from feeling peace. It says in the scriptures that fear it not from the Lord so I can take another guess, and that would be that fear comes from Satan. Satan has tools we don't realize. It isn't always big things like sex, drugs ,lying, and stealing, Satan knows that some people wont be tempted by those things so he uses his tactics wisely. If he can instill fear, depression and anxiety on us in keeps us from our divine potential he has won. Hopefully my mom doesn't get mad for me sharing this, but she has had a 15 year battle with anxiety. 15 years ago I was 15 so being younger I didn't really think much about it. as I got older I realized how much it affected her and our lives. She can not drive a car, or fly in a airplane, she gets very uncomfortable in busy restaurants and of unfamiliar places. She has the back row of church reserved for her so she can make an escape if needs be. My mom has told me in the past that she feel like a burden to Mindi because she has to take her everywhere. I help when I can if my mom needs me, but Mindi is already there so they usually get their errands done together. I wonder why we have certain struggles. My mom is a really good person, she is a ton of fun to be around and is always making a quilt for someone. I dont struggle with anxiety, but I do struggle with PMS (just ask B.J.) it is bad. I am learning that around that time of the month I am not me, and being very careful to get rest and learn to keep my mouth shut. Time is an interesting thing. I am trying to live in the moment more, and enjoy little things. None of us know how much "TIME" we have left.